I have a weekly update. It’s sitting in my “drafts” folder. I’m having a hard time writing it, though. I have reached a mental hurdle that I just don’t know if I can jump over it.
I feel like I made a stupid decision for jumping into another half marathon training cycle IMMEDIATELY after my first. I know there are runners out there who can run a half on a whim. I am obviously not there yet, nor do I think I ever will be. But I didn’t think running a second three months after my first would be so hard.
Or maybe I did? But thought I’d enjoy the challenge? I don’t know.
My long run this past weekend was disastrous. I’d like to blame the fact that I was on vacation, thus my routine was all off, but that’s just an empty excuse. I just didn’t want to do it. No way. No how. My body felt fine, although sluggish. I probably COULD have finished, I just didn’t want to. The second I saw Tim I made him pull over and get me. I was only 1.5 miles short, but still.
Then on my first weekday run of the week yesterday, I just couldn’t get into a rhythm. I finished the run in a decent (for me) time, but again with the sluggish legs and desire to just not run. I haven’t done today’s run yet, choosing to gamble with the weather and run this evening after Tim gets home. Maybe that will go better and I can get some confidence back? I don’t know.
Talk to me. How do you get over mental struggles while running/training? I’m not 100% ready to give up this race, but I’m definitely not as excited for it as I once was.